Dissatisfied

It seems like I'm swimming in a pool full of water that just ain't right. It's mad. Not good

Hfhdtgfd

The wonder of...life?

Life is full of strangeee things

I don't think I'm happy

Hmmm


IchiNiiSan

Unsure

I figured i'd give this spot a bit of
Purpose. Inner feelings?

I'm still unsure about uni. It's a huge thing to go to. I don't think I'm ready for it. It just feels too soon. Someone give me a hand.

I hate it when I get a random urge to say I love you to people. It just appears. Weird.


IchiNiiSan

The beginning of the end

I'm thinking of doing a fake diary to make a kind of fictional story. It could be very fun and creative. Shall we see? :D

Ishiki-Ringo Shiina

If I was smarter, to say it bluntly, I could get things done easier.
If they call me a child, it’ll be over and done with, and I won’t have to dirty myself
A bit of photosynthesis for me, for you genes that match.
I guess people like helpless situations
“Don’t lie to me”

When I cry I feel I could get anything with these white hands of mine
The answer is pure. We’re attracted to each other. This is how I love you, I think.

How old do I have to be to rid myself of loneliness and fear?
If I have a child will I at last be rid of my suffering?
You adore your adolescence, I take advantage of my rebellious stage
Now we like our wordplay, don’t we?
“Don’t lie to me”

When I cry I can overrule any law, and do as I wish
The answer is cruel. We’re fooling each other. This is how I love you, I think

When I know more than this, I can’t sleep at night, and fail in my double suicide
In my memories an oxidized mouthwash, camouflage
I’m the same as a child whining for something that isn’t there.
Mother, are you ashamed of this mixed child of yours?

I loved you.

La Salle de Bain- Ringo Shiina

in a cafe just a little down the stairs
from a city shop selling cameras and things
i smelled your lighter oil mixed with coffee and cream
an odor still lingered from the lines you gave me
you said it did not you? "just do it kill me"

today is a day that in particular
i seem to be smiling and laughing quite a lot
i just had a dream and in it you had died
and i had no choice then but to love you
do not think to abandon or ever leave me

so wash me cut me i am u n d e r w a t e r
my lungs and breathing are quite affected
please watch me closely and do check to see
i dry out completely i dry through and through
come shine me tear me i am underwater
relying completely on zero gravity
and when i do melt down entirely immediately

bon appetit

it was you who was dying there right in front of me
and i could not stop the tears i could not hold them in
all of the little things of this little world
are so very dear to me it hurts to think of them
oh do not make me have those kind of dreams again

a scent so sweet that it got me dirty
the troops to protect me were out on patrol
please watch me closely and do check to see
i dry out completely i dry through and through
a lie so big that it got me dirty
as soon as i said it a wound opened up
and when i do melt down entirely immediately

bon appetit

you said it did not you? "just do it kill me"

so wash me cut me i am underwater
my lungs and breathing are quite affected
please watch me closely and do check to see
i dry out completely i dry through and through
come shine me tear me i am underwater
relying completely on zero gravity
and when i do melt down entirely immediately

bon appetit

i am not afraid of a little boredom
why did the two of them ever chance to meet?

At the Last-Thrice

It's a shame that some must go without
I was no fool to think it might be my problem
Needy hands were reaching out
Kept my spare change and my pride in a tight fist

Now at the last
Everything has changed in the pale light
That death is cast on all I've done

I'm a good man on the whole
Who can blame me for looking out for number one
Never killed, I never stole
A small indulgence now and then
So what of it?
I'm a good man, Am I good man? I thought I was

The rewards of this life now count for naught
My body soon buried and left to rot
Good times gone how quickly it all has past
My God now I see how I've squandered each and every breathe

Now at the last
Everything has changed in the pale light
That death is cast on all I've done
Now at the last
Everything has changed in the pale light
Looking back I am undone



I've wanted to learn this song on guitar for a long time now. the raw passion of the song. it's a defeatist song in terms of lyrics, but it's oh so relevant. And i believe it's not me being arrogant. it's what i've tried to be. sometimes, it never seems good enough...

1000 words-Koda Kumi/Sweetbox

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain
When I turned back the pages:
Shouting might have been the answer...
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid
To say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words,
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say:

"Wait for me I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered
With your eyes to the floor
But still I swore
To hide the doubt
When I turn back the pages:
Anger might have been the answer...
What if I hung my head and said
That I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough
To know it's not too late

'Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see
I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh, a thousand words,
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh, a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you,
They'll carry you home, and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings, ooh

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you,
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever

A thousand words.

I want to learn to play this on acoustic guitar. It's such a powerful love song. A sad story though. Every teenage love story is one of those though. :/